What to do post-graduation? Am I ready to begin the next chapter of my life? Am I really a grown up? I have spent the past year anxious of what the next step in my life may look like. Somehow, by God's grace I stumbled upon this trip to Guatemala. I must admit I was drawn to this trip selfishly in pursuit of adventure. However, I didn't realize that my greatest adventure might be searching out the places deep within in my own heart.
I came into Guatemala last week with absolutely no expectations. I left my iPhone and pretty much everything else that I would not go a day without at home. I wanted to experience the culture without distractions. And I didn't want to miss out on anything during my short time here. My team had all been together two weeks before I arrived last Sunday and therefore I began my trip 'missing out'. I spent my first few days trying to catch up physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Especially spiritually. I quickly learned how exhausting and overwhelming it would be to maintain that mentality. Although I left many distractions at home, I learned that comparison, even with the best of intentions like strengthening my relationship with the Lord is also a distraction. He is teaching me what it truly means to seek him above everything else by keeping my focus on HIM ALONE. Since this realization God has brought an undeniable peace into my heart this week by finding my rest in him.
I am starting to think God is using my appendectomy and the rest required post-operation as a parallel to show me the importance of finding my rest in the Lord. Just as it is taking time for my body to heal, my walk with the Lord is something that will also take time. Sometimes baby steps are necessary, rather than permanently damaging something by pushing too hard.
